Wednesday, August 10, 2005
wow...its been a long time since i updated...makes me wonder y im doin it now...sheesh...everyone probably forgot about my journal...but oh well...school starts soon and my mom's bro is comin next weekend so im goin to be roomless...i believe imma kick my dad out of his room...sigh...n e way...myra i miss her cuz she's not here...and i hope she makes it back for the semester...guess what im listening to my neighbors fight...these people have no respect...im sure half of guam can hear 'em...ok im encountering a writers block...so hopefully i update again sometime soon...woohoo
Posted at 8/10/2005 11:25:15 pm by dela
Thursday, April 21, 2005
damn what a week...well after that stoopid accident that was supposedly my fault...i had to play detective for a lil bit...i learned a shit load of stuff though...i need to learn how to stand up for myself...i know im not perfect...hey im human and i do not make the best decisions that i would like to do...but y cant people see that...i do not like to be called a liar...cuz most of the time im not...and i do not like it when people say...so tell me the story and dont lie...like yes...i know i was wrong y do u have to keep on rubbing it in...u know when its me...i will stand by my friends whether they lie or not...and i wont rub it in their face, especially if i know they're not happy...by y should people support me...well i know im wrong...but u just wait till its ur turn...i hate policemen and i would rather have it u do ur shit and i'll do mine...i hate coming in contact with them...i just wanna shoot them with their guns...they are so egotistic...i called the cop i lied to today and i apologized but he was still being an asshole...i believe his name is officer asshole manibusan...n e way he starts yelling at me over the phone and i didnt even tell him y im callin him...dat shit...i wish someone would teach them all a lesson...its like hello YOU ARE WORKIN FOR ME...but y would he work for me if i lied...but i think everything coulda been avoided if i didnt lie and if he did his job well...and to top it off it makes it seem like IM THE ONLY ONE LYING...how about the other vehicle...i believe that they knew each other...he lied about how things happened...i dont know y he couldnt just be straight up and be like...no i just backed up i wasnt aware if they kept going or not...especially when the driver's girlfriend starts apologizing to me...well bitch apologize to my damn insurance company now...i hate this i hate takin people to court...i think its a waste of time...im like HELLO...just admit you were wrong...cuz i did...and lemme tell u ...its hard...especially when people rub it in ur face again and again and again...n e way...i've learned how to be my own personal investigator...maybe i should double major...be a nurse and a criminal investigator...my father even made the joke that i should be come a cop...but y...i think im just goin to kill manibusan...than imma become friends with the inmates...n e way...im going to meet with my insurance company tomorrow with my evidence that it isnt my fault...and i havent found n e eye witnesses yet that are in a good state of mind...i mean i dont know if the cop had a lil misunderstanding or maybe he was really being evil and mean cuz i didnt know him...hmmm...manglona and manibusan...i wonder if they're related...well hopefully everything turns out alright...and thanks to everyone who made my accidents into jokes and, although you guys are dorks, thanks for supporting me
Posted at 4/21/2005 12:34:25 am by dela
Saturday, March 26, 2005
hey everyone...happy easter...n e way...my easter day started off with IRRITATION UP MY ASS...my sister is being SUPER SILLY...and its driving me up the wall...its like i cant walk in the living room cuz she's scared hair might fall into the stupid coconut...im like...ok u can see the hair...and when my dad does it...he doesnt tell me to not walk in the living room...dat dork...oh and she was saying...oh this topaware is too oily...oh this oh that...grr...i dunno i think she's makin go a lil kookoo dats y im hiding in my room!
Posted at 3/26/2005 4:10:31 pm by dela
Thursday, March 24, 2005
hoi...well well well...i've been thinking a lot...and i have noticed that i havent made a good friend in a long time...i mean...someone who would drop what they are doin to make me not be lonely...but i cant say...i wonder y...cuz maybe my friendship values arent as it was before...and it sux...the last best friend i had was glo...and now everyone is considered a best friend...but how bout my best friend soul mate...?!?!...where they at?!?!...well i can honestly say that this is pretty much the best spring break i have had so far...basically relaxing...i havent been to the beach so much in one year...let alone this one month...i always hated goin to the beach but now i long to be at the beach...the other day i made my sister, nate, and my two nieces bury me in sand...and i usually wouldnt do dat...at first chantel said i looked like a sea otter...hmmm...dorkface...and then they TRIED to make me into a mermaid with uneven boobies...and the sand was purty heavy...i was like...HELP I CANT BREAF...and i was chewing sand...hearing the sand make its way into my ear...and the sand settled into my panty and into the ass...EWW...thats super gross... i was about to go semi skinny dipping...bottomless...cuz i wanted to get all the sand out...but it didnt work...and matapang had so many many balates...it was GROSS...yuck!...and then i almost drowned...cuz i THOUGHT i could swim...but obviously i couldnt...i was "swimming" and the current pulled me the wrong way...and den i couldnt reach the ground...it was weird...and i never learned my lesson...i kept gettin pulled by the stupid current...but im alive...woohoo...but thats it...hmmm...i think i'll update more later...
Posted at 3/24/2005 1:26:57 am by dela
Monday, March 21, 2005
rest in peace lil miss amber cruz
well..today wasnt a great day...i went to the funeral of a 10 yr old girl who died of cancer...and that always makes me wonder...which is worse...telling a kid that she is going to die...or watching her coffin be lowered into a pit?....i cannot imagine how much pain her mother and step father had to go through...i cannot imagine how it feels to lose a child, i do not know how it feels to tell a child that they are going to die...it just amazes me how calm her mom was, well i am sure she has suffered enough...how can u tell a parent that their child is better off dead than alive...its weird...what do u say...im sorry for ur loss...but then maybe it wasnt a loss...im sure they have learned a lot from this lil girl...so its not a loss...but its weird how the church can signify a place of birth, happiness, and death...we should separate every ceremony into different buildings...but the best wishes to the duenas and cruz family...
Posted at 3/21/2005 1:21:43 am by dela
Thursday, March 17, 2005
hmm...well its interesting what happened today...well lemme vent first...my father is driving me up the wall...he keeps on nagging me and nagging me and well nagging me bout dumb stuff..since yesterday...grr...but today grr...im tired of him he's all like...u're takin long klumyuing da coconut...hello...ONLY an hour for one whole one...but what does he expect...i DO NOT DO DAT TO COCONUTS EVERY FREAKIN DAY...and i dunno how to do it properly...oh well...hmmm...i went to my 2nd cousin's daughter's funeral...may she rest in peace...she's 0nly 10 and she died of cancer...n e way...it made me realize how split up my famils is...it quite sad...its like my dad on one side and his siblings on the other...and i dont like them nor do i like their kids...but thats just sumthin i gotta get over...i found out that my FIFTEEN year old nefew had a KID...i was like hello...im 20 and i dont have a kid...not that i want one...but i was amazed...it was somewhat nice seeing everyone though, its sad how we all come together...we wait for someone to die then we try to redefine family...but i was happy i went...at least i showed my respects...and then imma go to the funeral on monday...and dats bout it...n e who im hiding from my parents cuz they think im good for nothing...which is true...cuz i like hiding haha...n e way i gotta go..my sis is gonna use the phone and i have a long nite tonite....okie dokie...bye bye!
Posted at 3/17/2005 10:23:19 pm by dela
Friday, March 11, 2005
hmm...lala...its taking too long to load...
hmm...well i think stuffies are funny...before june and i were all like...*I WISH I HAD A BOYFRIEND*...now we're like....*HUMPH...DUMBSHIT PUSSYEATER DICKSUCKER..ASSHOLE BITCH ASS MOTHERFUCKER*...and the list continues...but i think that we should be careful what we wish for cuz we just might get it...nate and i have been good...sometimes...and i am L.O.J..which is lack of june...hehe...i stolered dat from her coworker...but i miss her...and phrea....and glo...and myra...but they dont really read my blog...but nevertheless i miss 'em....n e way...im goin to a PARTEEEAAAA...woohoo...i cant wait i mean i cant fit my clothes n e more cuz im gettin fat...as i mentioned earlier...im fat and lazy...oh well...if its not think it aint rite...rite...?...n e who...luf ya all...bye
Posted at 3/11/2005 5:02:26 pm by dela
Sunday, March 06, 2005
iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii aaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmm bbbbbbbbbaaaaaaaaaaccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkk....
ok now i know i said I'LL TRY to update EVERYDAY but as usual i slack off...now at least i make an effort cuz i am online everyday...some times theres nothing to write about...well i miss glow...see i put the "w"...and i guess she doesnt wanna come to guam ever...well when im still young...no kids to run after...and technically free...but still...i know i had my chance and i still regret it...even though i used to live be "NO REGRETS"...its so easily lostt....just like the whole procrastination is a virtue shit...wow glow has another hole on her nose...so when she has a cold and she blows...her mucous is gonna some outta a third hole...haha...or maybe when she sneezes her ring will fly...ok im mean..im just zealous...at least that i can admit...ok lets go see...well what have i been doin...lets see...sleeping and sleeping and more sleeping...its weird cuz im not l.o.s'ing...which is lack of SLEEP...cuz i get enuf sleep...ok now lets talk about glow...WITH A 'W"
hmm...well me and this chick...her name is gloW...with a "w"...go way back...i think it was in the 6th grade...well she saw me and wanted to be JUST LIKE ME...which i didnt blame her cuz everyone wanted to be...hehe...watever...we were probably the dorkiest of the dorks...ok not really dat was jesse and chris...but whatever we were considered we were together...they said we were like day and nite...im day she's nite...and i thought it was funny cuz if we were together...they thought we fought or sumthin...i dont think we ever really fought...maybe just a lil irritation here and there but nothing severe...but fortunately WE MADE IT...through middle skool...and along came our troubles, hardships, laughter, and memories. well all i can say is that so far i spent the best time with this gurl...she's my bitch...we both grew up during high school...according to her...i kept harrassing her during freshman year and she had no choice but to be my best friend...i think its worse den holding a gun to her head...just keep nagging( to the tune of nemo...just keep swimming...i know u know wat i mean...)...but after that we spoke on the phone almost everyday...well it was everyday...went out whenever we could...got dropped there...rode our bikes...ok dat was once but still that counts for a lot....our days in highschool were the best...she went to nd and i went to the rival school academy...which we all know was way better...but we went our separate ways but as i mentioned i kept bothering her... but no matter how far we were, no one could keep us apart...we watched each other change...not clothes ok...change as in personality...we grew up...we always went out to eat and eat and eat....especially when we're mad we ate...dats y im fat...n e way...and we both tried to lose it...but then after dat we ate...it was funny...we shared our dreams and hopes...our failures...and everything you can think of...except our bf's...but that is what i cherished the most...we would usually know what each other was thinking before we said n e thing...its like finding your soul mate...in a form of your best friend...and i can honestly say...that no one will ever replace her...and if people do not see how good of a person she is...they're not looking properly...she has so much potential...she has a lot to give to everyone, maybe they just dont realize it...but give it time and they would see what you have shown me glo...with a "w"...but now i guess i HAVE to share you with the world...i was stingy but now i realize that you cant ALWAYS be there for me...although we did say no matter what im here...blah blah blah...but i realized that i needed to share you with dwayne...dat sounds wrong but u know what i mean....and then when you went off to college...i know you needed my support even though i didnt wanna give it to you i did...because i wanted you to go off and experience stuff that i wouldnt ...and then i found out what you were doin...i didnt want you to go that direction...and i was mad...because i thought i knew you...or maybe i was mad because we didnt experience stuff together...and i was jealous that you made new friends and you were surviving on your own...but now im just happy that you are having fun...and im even happier that you are goin to find you appartment...and hopefully start a better life...but i just want you to know...isnt funny how it switched from her and me...to you....hmm...n e way...i just want you to know that i will never ever ever forget you...and you will always have a place in my heart and my home...cuz eventhough u said you were the only child...i consider you a sister...and with that said...good luck glow...with a "w"...AND DONT FORGET me here on this lil rock..i'll be waiting for you...someday remember we said we'll be eating at mc.donald's when we're man'omku...imma lookin forward to dat day...dont burn me like i've burned u in the past...luf ya chick...
Posted at 3/6/2005 11:14:49 pm by dela
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
hoi..ok now lemme ask a question...which ryan and i had a lil disagreement on...when someone says i dont wanna see or talk to you...blah blah blah...ur supposed to take that personally...i mean...in everything you say there is truth...well ryan's argument is dat is cuz they're mad and emotions this emotions that...BUT STILL...i understand you say stuff when ur mad...but not to me...im the NICEST PERSON IN THE WORLD...and dont try to argue with me cuz i just got outta an abortion debate and im ready to take everyone on...yay man...hehe...ok but i dunno...life is crazy...im tired of it...the solution to all my guy problems is to get rid of all of 'em...like u do with roaches...stomp on them...and watch their yucky guts fly...well maybe not exactly like dat...but u get my point...i need glo..GLOW WHERE ART THOU...speaking bout her...imma dedicate one whole blogger thingy bobby stuffy to u...cuz i miss ya...and i really really do miss u...n e way...gotta go bye
Posted at 2/23/2005 7:32:23 pm by dela
BITCH ...WHY THANK YOU FOR NOTICING...well...i finally figured out something...i learned that it is ok to be a bitch...although some people wont like you...its the ONLY proper thing to do...now tell me...is it fair that everytime i feel that im at fault when i get into a fight with nate, i find ways to tell him im sorry...i say im sorry and even if it takes me to go and hunt him down...i do...i go to his house unannounced to tell him im sorry...but when its his fault...he doesnt do shit...he just says...I DONT WANNA SEE OR TALK TO U...well den fine...he says he doesnt deserve what he's feeling...ok den i guess i deserve what im feeling...i seriously think this guy is bipolar...he is gettin smart...he makes me super duper mad when im not infront of him so he doesnt see my pain...how fucken rude...its funny how i have a nice entry bout him...now its like bitch dont talk to me...well i thought about him a lot and i look at my friends in relationships...hoping that their relationships always fulfill whatever it is they want out of it...like rowell and wayne...when they got into a fite he brought her flowers...the only thing i get are tears...i think the reasons i fite with him are so DUMB...i swear i wonder bout him...he's soooo....hmmm...i dont know....i think im just frustrated...he told me that he doesnt wanna see me or talk to me TODAY...well than fine...i dont wanna talk to him either...what the fuck...i know for a fact that i am NOT the easiest person to go out with and i know that i am not...but still...i have feelings too...and this idiot doesnt realize it...he wants me to bow down to him...and kiss his ass...I DO NOT KISS N E ONES ASS...unless its disinfected...and deni told him dat...im not gonna kiss ur ass...i think thats y he doesnt last long in relationships...he pushes his girlfriends to cheat on him...what in the world did i get myself into...i wanna run...run away from my problems...i want to be held...and told everything is gonna be ok...oh u know what...i almost killed these dumb people who were freakin walkin on the road...its like hello...no one can see u for shit....and this lady was putting up her hand like dats gonna stop us from running her over...oh well...grr...im still mad...back to the topic...i need a vacation...somewhere i can do stuff...but i dunno if i can...where am i gonna go and with who...its dumb to go and be by myself...i cant humor myself...
any way...i actually stayed at school today...i usually dont...i run away to nates house but he's being a TOTAL ASSHOLE...so i didnt even bother goin there...he told me not to call him and he called me but i wasnt home...HAHAHA.....and then i came home and i saw a number...i think from rota...its a 670 number...but i dunno who that'll be...but i spent time with june....i miss u still gurl...and i FINALLY saw reshma....its been a super duper long time...and im supposed to go walking but obviously im not...well phrea hasnt called me yet to confirm...i wanted to go alone...but i cant cuz paseo is super crowded and hell if im gonna walk n e where else by myself...so i wanted to walk around sinajana...but its gettin too late...so i'll just do what i usually do...sit around and get FAT...hmph...i dunno what else to write...im tired of bitching...imma watch television....bye...
Posted at 2/23/2005 1:38:03 am by dela
